Blink 182, sloths and the
boyfriend are my favourites.

1. Spit it into her voice-mail, a little slurred and sounding like the shot whiskey you downed for courage. Feel as ashamed as you do walking into work in last night’s clothes. Wake up cringing for days, waiting for her to mention it.

2. Sigh it into her mouth, wedged in between teeth and tongues. Don’t even let your lips move when you say it, ever so lightly, into the air. Maybe it was just an exhalation of ecstasy.

3. Buy her flowers. Buy her chocolate. Buy her a teddy bear, because that’s what every romantic comedy has taught you. Take her out to a nice restaurant where neither of you feel comfortable and spend the whole night clearing your throat and tugging at your tie. Feel like your actions are more suited to a proposal than the simple confession of something you’ve always known.

4. Whisper it into her hair in the middle of the night, after you’ve counted the space between her breaths and are certain she’s asleep. Shut your eyes quickly when she shifts toward you in askance. Maybe you were just sleep whispering.

5. Blurt it out in the middle of an impromptu dance party in the kitchen, as clumsy as your two left feet. When time seems to freeze, hastily tack on “in that shirt” or “when you make your award-winning meatballs” or, if you are feeling particularly brave, “when we do this.” Resume dancing and pretend you don’t feel her eyes on you the rest of the night.

6. Write her a letter in which the amount of circumnavigating and angst could rival Mr. Darcy’s. Debate where to leave it all day – on her pillow? In her coat pocket? Throw it away in frustration, conveniently leaving it face up in the trashcan, her name scrawled on the front in your sloppy handwriting. Let her wonder if you meant it.

7. Wait until something terrible has happened and you can’t not tell her anymore. Wait until she almost gets hit by a car crossing Wabash against the light and after you are done cursing at the shit-for-brains cab drivers in this city, realize you are actually just terrified of living without her. Tell her with your hands shaking.

8. Say it deliberately, your tongue a springboard for every syllable. Over coffee, brushing your teeth side-by-side, as you turn off the light to go to sleep – it doesn’t matter where. Do not adorn it with extra words like “I think” or “I might.” Do not sigh heavily as if admitting it were a burden instead of the most joyous thing you’ve ever done. Look her in the eyes and pray, heart thumping wildly, that she will turn to you and say, “I love you too.”

- R. McKinley, “8 Ways To Say I Love You“  (via billowy)

(Source: baveuile, via youneak)

Posted 6 Jan


sorry i can’t go to your party next month i have a headache

(via lilyof-purity)

Posted 2 Dec

the taste of freeeeeedommm!
  • People: Ew. Your music is so emo and depressing. All they do is scream and sing about cutting themselves. How can you even like that sort of garbage?
  • Mom&Dad: I really hope you can find a different style to look up to. I really think the phase you're in now is a bad influence. You shouldn't listen to this type of music because it has a very negative meaning to it that revolves around Satan and demons, and if you spend too much time around negative influences, you may become a negative person.
  • Asking Alexandria: It was you that told me I could do this. You put the music in my heart, and how you sang with the band in Memphis. It's hard just to be strong. Not knowing if I've done you proud. I like to imagine you smile when you hear my songs. Even though I'm on my own, I know I'm not alone. Because I know there's someone, somewhere. Praying that I make it home.
  • Sleeping With Sirens: One day you'll open your eyes, take a look inside. I just saved your life. Just take a look inside. I hope you know what it's like for you to be alright. I am for you. Don't give up, just believe I will be right there, when your hopes and dreams are on the line. I can save you if you ask me to. There's hope for you tonight.
  • Pierce The Veil: They'll never take us alive. Can you chase away the darkness? To live in love and die. And I don't care if you're sick, I don't care if you're contagious. I would kiss you even if you were dead. Would someone make me go blind for the rest of my life? 'Cause I'd do anything to hold your hand.
  • Black Veil Brides: We're soldiers, in season, We can bring change before we die. The tails of their beatings, To feel what lies beneath our eyes. Never give in, Never back down, Never give in, Never back down, When your life feels lost, Fight against all odds!
  • Escape The Fate: You said this could only get better, There's no rush 'cause we have each other. You said this would last forever, But now I doubt if I was your only lover. Are we just lost in time? I wonder if your loves the same. 'Cause I'm not over you. Baby, don't talk to me, I'm trying to let go. Not loving you is harder than you know. 'Cause girl you're driving me so crazy. How can I miss you if you never would stay? If you need time I guess I'll go away. Inside me now there's only heartache and pain. So where's the fire, you've begun the rain.
  • All Time Low: My ship went down, in a sea of sound. When I woke up alone I had everything; A handful of moments, I wished I could change, And a tongue like a nightmare, that cut like a blade. In a city of fools, I was careful and cool, But they tore me apart, like a hurricane. A handful of moments, I wished I could change, But I was carried away. Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty, But I'm smiling at everything. Therapy, you were never a friend to me, And you can keep all your misery.
  • People: There are some great tunes! I could listen to this stuff all day!
  • Me: *facepalm*
Posted 25 Nov

“Hey Phil, what’s your favorite color?”